I F*cked Up This Month (And Here's What It Taught Me)

So let's talk about the book I'm supposed to be launching in July.

Holy shit, it's been a struggle.

Not because I can't write. Not because I don't have something to say. But because every time I get close to making real progress, I find a way to sabotage myself.

And here's the kicker - I didn't even realize I was doing it until this week.

The Resistance is Real

I've wanted to write a book forever. But there's always been this massive resistance around it. The bigger the resistance, the bigger the potential reward on the other side. Or at least that's what I tell myself when I'm not talking myself out of the whole thing.

"You're not an author." "This is stupid." "Why do you think you can write this book?"

Sound familiar?

Because it's the same shit I hear from women about their businesses all the time:

"I can't do this program right now." "I can't expand right now." "I can't invest in myself right now." "Now is not the time."

And it drives me crazy when I hear it from other people because I can see exactly what's happening - they're their own block.

But guess what? I've been doing the exact same thing.

The Wake-Up Call

This month has been slower than usual. Normally I have multiple clients joining every month. This month? Crickets.

And I kept thinking, "What the fuck is going on?"

Then I had a call with my writing coach and it clicked.

My beliefs and blocks around this book are the EXACT same objections I'm hearing from potential clients. The energy I'm putting out around my own resistance is coming back to me like a boomerang.

Your people are a direct reflection of how you think, act, and feel.

The Shedding Process Nobody Talks About

When you step into something bigger than yourself, you have to let go of old stories and patterns to make space for the new. And it's not pretty. It's messy as hell.

My coach asked me: "Do you have trouble receiving?"

And yeah. I do.

I have a hard time receiving anything - help, money, love, support - without feeling like I have to earn it first. Because growing up, everything came with conditions. So I learned not to accept things openly.

But abundance doesn't work like that. Abundance means there's more than enough. No conditions.

And when you can't receive, you block yourself from abundance.

Taking Radical Responsibility

So here's me, in real time, taking full responsibility:

This past month, I fucked up.

I wasn't showing up as my best self. I fell into my own excuses. I almost gave up on the book. And I projected all of that onto my audience and potential clients.

Nobody to blame but myself.

And that's actually good news. Because if I'm the problem, I'm also the solution.

What This Means for You

Look at your past month. Really look at it.

Was it good? You did that. Was it not so great? You did that too.

How can you take radical responsibility for your results?

Because the more you work on yourself - the more comfortable, confident, and convicted you become - that's the type of people and results you'll attract.

Your blocks are showing up in your business whether you realize it or not.

The question is: are you ready to see them?

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